The End

Ive had this xanga for quite a while now. My first post are probably some ridiculous recap of my day. I feel like i am not really the person that began this thing, ive changed, and definatly for the good. As I have realized this i have come to terms with the fact that i can probably end this xanga end.

If you want to know whats up with me now. My roommate at God's Resort and myself now write on our blog : http://14thandpearl.blogspot.com/  It talkes about all that has happened since we moved to God's Resort back in August. I am also  hoping that Eddie and Emilie will be also sharing their insight to the blog as well.

As i was talking about not writing on here anymore i was wondering how in the world i was going to save all that i have written for future reference. Katie came up with a good idea that i am going to attempt. Im planning on printing all of my posts out and then getting them binded. Im exited because i can have all that i wrote in my hands. I hope it works out like im planning.

Love to all that have read this and keep up with my life! thanks!

meg

its winter

i just realized that its been a long time since ive updated. i was reading Kates xanga. And i like how she started out her post about the ice storm so ill quote:

" we are at the end of a huge ice storm.  its been described as looking like 1)the white witch came through town 2)a war zone 3)like the trees are upside down."

Katie and I lost power and camped out at the Udells. They were soo hospitable, they have pleny of experience in hosting big groups of people. Just like in Jan they had a bunch of college students stay with them. The first night i counted 20 people at the house. The second night we were closer to 30. Since then its dwindled down and last night there were only 15 people.

Katie and i got our power back on tue. my parents didnt get it back till wed night. my grams almost froze. i realized something important about my family. they are very very stubborn and prideful.

there were many places that they could have stayed at, people they could have called. but they decided that they would survive with the help of the fire place.  my dad slept in his own bed each night. mom and grams finaly moved to the living room by the fire. Im glad i realize this. because sometimes when you dont allow others to help, it doesnt show self reliance or independance, it shows pride and stubburnness.

Tonight we are heading up to Kansas City for Dena's goodbye. It will be fun in the city, but also nostalgic because Dena is leaving. :(

Once i get the camera back from Katie i will post some amazing pics from the ice storm.

love love  

dreams and sick

I woke up this morning sick. A lot of the kids were i live have been sick. also Katie (my roommate) wasn't feeling to well yesterday. I hope the fact that i'm sick can explain the crazy dream i had last night.

I was going to get married. And for some reason Thom's dad was officiating the ceremony, and all the women on my side of the family were worried that it wasn't going to be Christian enough. So all of the things that Thom's dad had planned to say in the wedding were not Christian enough so they were rewriting his script. 
The front of the church Nicole had decorated, and had these two cakes that were greenish blue (the colors of my wedding) with big holes in the middle of them and they were filled with water, one had the image of aquarius and the other of mercury, like the zodiac signs (even though mercury really isn't a zodiac sign) at the bottom of the cake. These cakes were being moved around by Thom's dad because they kept getting in the way of the ceremony, and because of this they came to the attention of the female Christians and were removed because they weren't Christian. I felt horrible for Nicole, because she had put so much time into them.
All of a sudden behind me people are putting up tables in the sanctuary (people being the guests in their nice clothe) and covering them with white table cloths and red candles. This apparently made me freak out and call of the wedding. The next sequence of events are me running away from people dressed in a wedding dress that is now up to my knees because its gotten ripped. I finally get away and i'm on the second floor of this barn like structure. At this time i get a text message from Quade and it says "even with out shoes i'm taller than all your family". I have no time to really think, so i call Katie and in my head i can see her: shes not answering her phone and is running around with little kids in her brides maid dress that for some reason is leopard print and a huge bow on the top of her head.

I manage to get out of the building by climbing off the roof. I run through the side of a big banquet room were all my guests from the wedding are sitting and i get into this mechanical car that has a button you push and it goes forward. I push the button and it shocks me.I keep trying and  I make it out of the building. Then i am walking through a forest/park area were more guests are sitting. I gather up all my bridesmaids to talk and apologize to them. So we all huddle up at the front of the room (like a football huddle) and i explain to them why i ran out on the wedding. I tell them that things were crazy, that this was not how i had planned my wedding, and then i start ranting and raving about the red candles, and the fact that none of the bridesmaids dresses match. The dresses are a combination of silver, leopard print, black, and maroon. These girls (i didn't really recognize any of them) are very understanding. I get hugs all around and all is well.

Then i realize that i need to find my groom. He doesn't know how i feel, i'm looking for him and i come across Dom who is dressed in this white 20's tux with the hat and everything. He is dancing. I don't talk to him i just walk by.

I keep looking for my groom, i don't find him, i dont know who i was marrying in this dream. Then i woke up. Felt like i had to puke. And amazingly remembered this whole dream just so i could write about it here.

hope your dreams are not as crazy as mine and that the weather change doesnt make you sick.

crazy busy weekend

 this weekend was quite busy for me. not to mention the fact that i was also coming off of a very busy week.

friday was the international scream 2. last year it was a lot of fun and we made some money. this year it was fun, but because the international club has grown so much and the members didn't have to really pay. i don't think we actually made any money. but i had fun, and i know a lot of other people did as well. friday morning i woke up and worked on Katie's costume and also on mine. I made a shirt thing with flowing sleeves for Katie, she had an old prom dress and the combination made her outfit as a elf from Lord of the Rings very nice. The best part of her outfit were the ears that she cut off of a satan mask and spray painted cream.

My out fit was an old bridesmaid dress turned into Cinderella. Its the dress from Sarah's wedding. I don't know if anyone remembers her but we planned her wedding in a week. Yep! a week. The dress is a blue color so i figured Cinderella was a nice transformation. What i was most exited about was the chance to wear the silly dress again. For some reason you don't tend to re-wear the bridesmaid dresses. I have three of them, and this is the only one i've used again

Not the greates picture, but its the best one ive found so far. Katie is on the far left and im on the far right.

Then on saturday we carved pumpkins with the Kids from God's Resort. I have been trying to plan this activity for a while. Its hard to plan things on a saturday because everyone is at work. But we still had a great time. we bought 10 pumpkins. And the kids had a blast carving them. There are pictures that other people took and i will post them if i get a copy of them.
After the pumpkin carving Katie and I took the kids to watch a Ratatouille at the cheap theater. it wasn't as fun as i thought. With the kids not being able to sit that long, having to go to the bathroom and also catching little Brenda eating popcorn of the floor. I think we did a little over load for the younger kids. I might have been a better plan to just take the older kids. The little ones were to hungry and tired.

Sunday was also quite busy. Because one of the girls that normally picks up the kids and takes them to church was out of town i stayed back to take the kids to church. I am so thankful for the few people that are faithful with taking the kids to church sunday morning. i need to remember to thank them for it more often. I have 5 kids with me. Also there was no kids church so two of them had to sit with me at church. I remember how hard it is to sit through church when you are a little kid. its long, boring and you get tired of sitting. I do have to say that the kids did a great job of not being to noisy or distracting.

After Church Quade had a thank you lunch for all the people that helped out with the College Age Fall retreat we had last week end. It was fun to sit and talk with friends and enjoy a meal together. After the lunch at Quades I headed of to Watered Gardens for the second annual Bless Fest. Again i had a car load of kids and they had a blast playing on the games and getting some food and freebies.

To finish off my sunday i got the amazing blessing of babysitting for my sister. Little Ela and i had a lot of fun. We talked, read books, and played together. She is so cute, i love to make her laugh so hard that she chuckles. She is such a happy baby. Her mom and dad got to go watch a movie together. It was fun giving my time and get receiving so much joy and blessings from doing it.

Last week end in October, crazy busy. But i learned a lot. I was blessed and hopefully was able to give glory to Jesus; that is what makes everything worth while.  

nothing much to say...i think

so life is normal. routines are set.

lately i have beene exhausted beyond all belief. so tomorow i have an appt to talk to the school's medical center about maybe getting some tests done to see if there is something medical wrong with me (anemia, or something like that i hope).

*note: before i sat down to check my xanga i put some soup in the microwave and then i got so entertained that i forgot about it till just now, so i have to go warm it up again, so hold on till i get back, one sec. *

ok im back,

so yeah, getting some tests done because franckly this is ridiculous, sleeping all day, always tired and kind of depressed, which is normally not me. so please keep this in your prayers.

Also Fall retreat is this weekend, a nice break from school and work. im exited. pluas pumpkin carving. and maybe this year my design wont get out shined by jwills face.
and hopefully once we get back from the retreat we can add the finishing touches to the plans for the pumpkin carving with the God's Resort kids. last year we didnt have enough big people to keep an eye on the sharp and flailing knifes that were used. so this year i hope we get a good group of people to help out. im exited! pictures will be posted afteerward of course.

today i stoped by to help out Kate and Timmy, tho i could only stay and help for a little while it was fun. not the circumstance but the fact that they are a part of community in my mind and that means we help one another out. love it! to explain more here is what happened. this weekend while they were away the apartment next to theirs caught on fire damaging a lot of it and filling kate and timmy's with smoke. so they were given the oportunity to move to another apartement in the same complex. so we helped them move. actually i helped them unpack a little, but the comunity helped them move. their new place is bigger, i hope settleling in will be easy. its hard to move.

and bad weather. im at work. talking about thunderstorm warning and such. its been raining pretty hard on and off all evening. i hope it calms down enought for me to go home at my assigned hour.

ok thats it for now.

meg